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I am afraid..

cbd — Sun, 01 Aug 2010 09:34:24 +0000

Tonight I came home after attending my cousin’s husband funeral, shortly after two of my friends’ funeral.

I was forced to contemplate death.

Tonight I saw a man sleeping in the corner of a large green gate. Without any blanket, with a piece of cloth covering his face, hugging his earthly belonging in a white plastic bag.

I was forced to contemplate life.

I’m afraid that my life will not be meaningful if at the time of my death I have not make myself useful to the living.

Bogor, October 11, 2003
(I found this while cleaning up my house, inside my old work book)

Blogging made easy: www.posterous.com

cbd — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 15:58:30 +0000

I remember when I was in Junior High, I found an old book that belonged to my father, it was titled: Biology Made Easy.
Inside that book, biology was described in a way that any dummies would understand, even to a junior high dummy whose mother tongue was not English. Nowadays, probably that book will be titled: Biology for Dummies (which, to my amazement, I’ve never found in any bookstores’ shelves).
Now, something similar to that book has appeared in the blogging world, in the form of a website that makes my life a bit simpler. Somehow.
It’s like shooting 3 ducks with one bullet (rubber ducks, o my Humane Society friends), post one time and I get my Twitter tweet & my Facebook status updated, plus I can sharpen my blogging skill polished. Better yet, I can use the post as a “draft” for my more definitive blog at www.sibaso.com because I can write down and post anything that cross my mind before it’s gone, anywhere, anytime via email.

The site’s called posterous.com; easy to “subscribe” (I wouldn’t call it “subscribing”, although it is; it’s just that it’s too simple compared with any other subscription processes); there were several other social networking sites which “status” or whatever they call them can be updated through posterous. I know some of you would look at me with your funny expression asking: what’s in it that you write this ad for them?
Well, first of all, this ain’t no ad; and secondly, I’m just returning the favor here. I got the service for free, now they get me evangelizing for them, fair trade. Just this once that is.

So why don’t you be on the edge and use them? It’s free, you got nothing to lose, except the lengthy subscription process..

Let there be peace on earth..

Need to Lose Weight

cbd — Sun, 11 Apr 2010 14:35:17 +0000

As my train arrived to Bogor one day, my friend told me that I slept all the way from Jakarta to Bogor and snored like hell. He said sometimes it’s like I stopped breathing and then made a loud noise as I was gasping back my breath for air.
Well, the truth is, this is not the first time I ever heard someone told me this. But my friend continued to tell me that if I consulted a physician on my condition (which I always plan and never do), probably the first action that physician will ask me is, to lose some weight.

Yes, I thought, he’s right; and also that reminded me that I’ve been eating like a pig for the last two months or so. No wonder I felt so heavy.

As I stepped down the train to the station platform, I decided to begin my another attempt of losing weight. I’ve done it several time with no success, always ends up in a yo-yo situation . So, on my way home from the station, I stopped by a drug store to buy a bathroom scale and another stop at the supermarket to buy a “losing weight” milk which I have to drink every morning and evening, replacing breakfast and dinner. Poor me.

Upon my arrival home, I took out the bathroom scale, put it down, stepped on it and watched anxiously as the disk wheezing around quickly to indicate that I weighed 106 kgs (212 lbs). For a 163 cms, that’s too much weight to put on my fragile bones. Plus, the combination of those numbers in a formula gave me a Body Mass Index (BMI) of 39.89: 2nd degree obesity. Only 0.11 point away from “morbidly obese” status, which means I can, without warning, drop dead at any given time in any given place. Well, so does every living creatures on the surface of this old earth, but when you hit BMI 40, your chance is as fat as you are.

The small BMI calculator software installed in my small cellphone also indicated that my ideal weight (based on my height, I imagined) is between 49.15 to 66.15 kgs (98.3 to 132.3 lbs), that’s half way down from where I am now.
I don’t have any idea how to dive that deep other than cutting down carbohydrate intake as minimum as I can.

Anybody got an idea? (No spamming, please)